Passion; “a strong feeling of enthusiasm or excitement”. Passion; do you have one? During the last few crucial ‘moulding’ years of our lives, I’ve been asked what my passion is more times than I can count. What is your passion? Find your passion. Pursue your passion. Give it everything you’ve got.
Success is a funny thing. We chase after it almost blindly. I remember saying it even in my high school graduation speech – “I want to be successful, and do good and be happy”. But often we forget success means different things to different people. My best friend graduated from college last year and landed one of the best corporate jobs around. She’s probably going to be insanely successful. But what if success doesn’t mean the same thing for me? What if we can’t all stand against the same yard stick? I never want to be the CEO of a company. I honestly don’t think I could. You know how they say ‘jack of all trades, king of none’ – well even at 21 I know I’m going to be the king of none.
It’s not that I lack passion or drive or direction. I’m just interested in a few too many things, and none of them quite enough to chase solely after that. I want to study literature and also photography, I want to give back to society and make a difference in this world, I want to travel and I want to create something with my hands, I want to plan events and I want to work on films, I want adventure and I want stability – I’m just 21 and my list is ever increasing, forever increasing.
As kids of the internet age we have all read time and time again of people who have a mid-life crisis, people who are unhappy with how their life turned out, people who wish they had done things differently. This doesn’t apply only to their careers of course, but there is one overarching emotion which is common to all these stories. That emotion isn’t a lack of passion – that emotion is regret. Nothing scares me quite like regret. I don’t know what I want out of life just yet, but I know this, I want to regret nothing. I don’t want to look back years from now and think of the “what ifs” and the “if onlys”.
Sometimes I wish I had the clarity some of my peers do of knowing what’s next and pursuing it with single-minded determination. I wish I had something concrete to work backwards of, but maybe it’s okay to not know it at 21. It’s okay to give myself some time to figure it out. I don’t know what I want to do next. I have ideas and I plan to turn them into action, but I don’t know what I want out of life. I do however know what I don’t want, with every fibre in my being I know what I don’t want, and I think that’s a pretty good start.
– Nikita Seth